JUST ANOTHER CRUSH.

Q: What is your biggest fear?
A: To lose someone I really love, and care about.
Q: What is the greatest happiness existence?
A: To love and being loved ♥

I have never experienced such feeling of loving and being loved. Have I?

It's not like I'm desperate, no. There's this one guy that gets me thinking, is it real or just another crush? High School Girl Crush, right.

We have been classmates for a year and InsyaAllah, hopefully we could survive another year to come :) I have been admiring him since 2008, after he broke up with his previous girlfriend which happens to be our classmate. He is a smart guy, a cool one. Somehow, I can feel the "butterflies in your tummy" kind of feeling whenever he talked to me. He does make me smile each time he is near. I have never liked someone of the same age since Encik Abang Tinggi dropped out of school. I'd love to talk to him by simply asking him Maths questions because I don't have any topics to bring out, but I'm too scared to do so. I mean, though I'm not so close to his ex-girlfriend, we're still classmates and it will be awkward IF I talked to this guy in front of her, am I right? I need feedbacks. Please.

THE 'MOMENT'

So I was browsing through Achik and Adila's blog. They just posted the same thing- about sporting night and 'the talk' that we used to have back then, when we're in form one, together with Dinie. Without a doubt, I must say that 2008 has not been so good when it comes to our friendship. We fought a lot. For me, there was too much Dramas, too much Backstabbings, and too much Bitching~ well, you know what they called: High School Years.

Now that we have stepped to a brand new year, those memories seem like so long ago and time always kills the pain we used to felt after every argument. We did spend time together but I know it wasn't enough. Now that we're in form three and will be sitting for PMR exams, we tend to be more likely alone, studying or doing piles of homeworks. I do miss you girls, even when we're together. I don't want the 'sparks' to be gone, I want it to always shine :] Girls, I may not shine the most but you know I'm always there for you.

ALWAYS WILL BE.

This friendship knot we tied together the moment we first talked to each other, shall be kept and locked deep in my heart, and I shall never let it go even just for a second. You have left many scars upon my life. These scars are happy memories left deep within my heart. You know how much you mean to me and other Gennine-rs, how much I adore you, and how I always wanted to just stare at you and laugh at your jokes all day long~ You are the highlight of every event. You are the soul, you brought life to 2C08 :] The moment you said you were leaving, I knew I didn't want to believe it, now I know I just HAVE TO .. I thought that this is part of my unreliable illogical dreams, the only thing is, I woke up too soon to realize that it's not. My OWLING partner, I love you to death and nothing will ever beat this unique friendship we have. One thing for sure, though I may never get to see you again after this, I just want you to know that I shall cherish all the memories we had, back then. Good luck. You're MISSED already ♥

AFRAID TO FALL.

As 2009 came, I began to feel the heat of PMR examination which came across my mind every single breath I took. I knew that I'll be given piles of homeworks, tons of handouts and uncountable motivations as soon as my feet stepped on the ground of MRSM Kuala Krai. It's going to be a hard, stressful year- I thought. Depress. Sir Fahmy is keeping us fit by making us jog around campus every weekdays, and soon to come, Komando Gila-Gila programme. I do hope there will be another owling *wink. Why? Even I don't know the reason.

New year. I thought that this COULD BE the start of something new, something unexpected, something great, something Magical. A new year means I'll be another year older, more mature than before, more work to do, more homework to finish, more friends to make, more knowledge to gain. Since I lived in boarding school, I'll be getting new room mates, new classmates, new teachers and maybe, just maybe, new schoolmates.

Previously, Dila and I promised to be room mates no matter what, by hook or by crook. Well, you know sometimes, things just don't go our way, the way we planned it. As for my new classmates, I'm grateful too. I never expected to be in the same class as Zaff, I mean, we're different in almost every way, but you'll never know what's going to happen, right? For now lets just go with the flow~

2008 was not so great for me, and I believe, for all of us. Although I was doing better in exams, my friendship with TGG were too fragile, sooner or later it will get broken or fall down. We were walking on pieces of broken glass with our bare feets, just hoping that they won't bleed. So I hope 2009 will be an unforgettable year for us, the wonderful one. Lets hold on tight, surviving this roller-coaster ride. I know we're unseparable :]